Healing....(poem 09/13/01)

This was also written after 9/11...I dreamed about my father who had passed away on 12/24/09

In all of the struggle
I see your face
Makes my sorrows
Feel pale in comparison
To the rest of the world.

I can feel for them all
All who lost
Their hearts
They will never forget
They will only strive forward.

All has changed
Nothing can ever be the same
Our guards are up
Our hearts are hardened
We can never breathe a sigh of relief.

Please let someone enter my heart
And tell me it's OK
I know someday I'll see you
And you can comfort me
But for now I still can see you.

The sorrow, the pain
An unbelievable pallor over all the world
Emotions spent
Souls broken
Hearts shattered.

Nothing will bring them back
Like nothing will bring you back
Retribution is our only comfort
The light of so many lives extinguished
Twin flames, now snuffed to darkness.

The falling, collapsing
Of a nation's spirit
Of a human's strength
To be rebuilt
Slowly and painfully.

As I watch you leave again
I can understand some of the fear, the pain
Bring us back to life
Help us all to cope
And begin a brighter tomorrow.

Justice....(poem 09/12/01)

This poem was written after 9/11

A deafening silence
Fills the air
Silent cries of anguish
Mark the common expression.

All lost
No one finding a place
Hearts are full of angst
Minds are full of vengeance.

There is no forgetting
No one can forgive
We'll see this through to the end
No one will go unrested.

It is a private time
In a very public place
When every being is involved
No one hiding can go unpunished.

All are fixed on revenge
None are seeking forgiveness
Justice will be dealt
And no mercy will be granted.

The Creature....(poem 1991)

First, a disclaimer: this was my very first poem, in 7th grade! Please know I was reading a lot of John Saul in those days...I also didn't keep the rhyming scheme intact throughout...and this has been edited slightly from its original version!

The rain pours down,
With a painfully pelting sound,
As I sit alone at my window,
Watching the storm roll by.

Suddenly comes the thunder,
That shatters the sound of rain,
Blindingly comes the lighning,
That slashes its light of pain.

Rap, rap, slowly on the door I hear,
Penetrating my vulnerable soul,
Rap, rap, it comes again, I hear,
Making me cringe and my eyes roll.

Slowly I stand, knees shaking,
And I shuffle to the door,
Rap, rap, it comes again,
And I feel my heart sink to the floor.

Slowly I open the creaking door,
Coming face to face with a creature,
Who has green sparking lights for eyes,
And horrid indistinguishable features.

His limp hair hangs past his shoulders,
His chest heaves with every breath,
He lets out a single moan colder,
Than the rain that pours.

With a muffled cry I turn,
Trying to close the door,
But the creature who threatens,
Only steps inside and roars.

I run my fastest to my room,
Trying to escape this horror,
This horror that chases me, unending terror,
And I slam against the wall.

The creature, he pins me tightly,
Against the hard stone wall,
Then crashes me to the concrete,
And I sink into darkness - forever,
Forever more.

Touched by Grace....(poem 07/28/10)

I’ve been touched by the hands of grace

Blessing me with your love

I never believed I deserved

Love as lasting and pure as ours

I played it off as inconsequential

To ever fall over my head

Fate called my bluff

By sending you my way

I’ve grown accustomed to our life

To seeing your face each morning

Lying in sleep beside you

Knowing you’re there to adore me

Your face is etched on my eyes

Your touch lingers on my skin

I feel you in our daughter

I sense you in the growing life inside me

You make me whole

Your spirit binding to mine

I pray I never take for granted

The magic that is our love

May I never forget to tell you

The dreams you fill in my heart

I’ve been touched by the hands of grace

Blessing me with your love

Remembering....(song 2009)

Painted childhood memories
On my brain
Feel so near to the past
Yet never the same.

A touch, a smell
A feel in the air
Takes me back
Returning with care.

I can't help remembering
The memories are too clear
They take me back to another place
I can't get to from here.

Some days I've forgotten
Looking only ahead
Until I get the familiar pang
Of days passed by and spent.

I can't help remembering
The memories are too clear
They take me back to another place
I can't get to from here.

Turn the time and care for today
Keeping close the moments passed away.

I can't help remembering
The memories are too clear
They take me back to another place
I can't get to from here.

Your Song...(poem 12/08/09)

(written for our baby that we lost at 7 weeks into the pregnancy)

It creeps up

Out of nowhere

Like a game of hide and seek

I close my eyes

To the sorrow

Hot flood of pain, I weep

Memories

Of what never was

What never will be with you

They cloud my mind

With what I want

But never will finally do

Even if

We add another

Love that next comes along

I will always

Think of you

And the beauty of your song.

Loss....(poem 12/07/09)

(written for our baby that we lost at 7 weeks into the pregnancy)

I've lost my job

To keep you safe

To hold you inside.

I've seen your face

Each time I've felt

Each time I've cried.

I never knew

This loss could feel

So devastating to abide.

Emptiness fills me

You were taken away

Like someone had lied.

I'm sorry - so sorry

I couldn't defend you

And by God's will, you died.

Day by Day....(poem 10/29/09)

(written for our baby that we lost at 7 weeks into the pregnancy)

In my mind

I already love you

In my heart

You already have a place

In my dreams

I can see your angel face

It’s you and me

Taking it day by day

Hold my peace

Keep you safe and healthy

Hold my cheer

As you grow and change

Hold my love

Just a simple rearrange

It’s you and me

Taking it day by day

So long to go

But so precious the time

Make the most

Until you’re really mine

It’s you and me

Taking it day by day

The Mother-Daughter Bond of Love....(poem 06/24/05)

Mothers and daughters share a bond

That never can be broken

Through trials, tribulations, and tears

A mother’s love holds strong, unspoken.

From mother-daughter banquettes

To shopping at the mall

Time spent between a mother and daughter

Is the best time spent, of all.

Memory scented kitchens

Aromas of hand crafted cookies and pies

Fill a daughter’s home and heart

With snapshots of times gone by.

Though daughters grow and move on

Some having daughters of their own

They hold one person close to their heart

The Mother, whose love builds a home.

The Bond of Sisterhood....(poem 06/24/05)

The relationship between sisters

Starts as a budding promise

It grows and stretches and strengthens

Into a bond that no one can miss.

Through years of bus rides and weekends

Together, sisters experience living

From struggles to late night girl talks

Their best times are when they’re giving.

Little sisters look up to their elder

Wiser, more refined other half

Always hoping and yearning

To someday have that same class.

Growing up together

Sharing memories made as one

Sisters know and understand

That a better friend, there is none.

We Knew Better....(song 09/21/09)

CHORUS:

Nobody believed in us

Our forever would be cut to an end

But we knew better

We knew better than them

It was a whirlwind romance

An at first sight kind of love

We knew it from the start

We held each other’s hearts

And we fell

Not one year later we tied the knot

Promising ourselves to each other

We knew that it was right

We held each other tight

And we jumped

CHORUS:

Nobody believed in us

Our forever would be cut to an end

But we knew better

We knew better than them

CHORUS:

Nobody believed in us

Our forever would be cut to an end

But we knew better

We knew better than them

Now 10 years have gone by

We burst every time we look in her eyes

The product of our love

Sent straight from God above

And we still hold strong

CHORUS:

Nobody believed in us

Our forever would be cut to an end

But we knew better

We knew better than them

Yeah we knew better

Better than any one of them

Stand....(song 08/21/09)

Sometimes

When I’m lying here

There’s silence all around me

And that’s what I fear

I don’t know

What you did

To me

CHORUS:

But I will stand

I’ll lay down my tears

I’ll search for something

That will make it all clear

I will stand

Looking

Back to a time

When our love seemed forever

And you were mine

Let go

That’s what I tell

Myself

CHORUS:

So I will stand

I’ll lay down my tears

I’ll search for something

That will make it all clear

I will stand

I will stand

I will stand

BRIDGE:

And if you cross my way while I am down

I will speak to you without a sound

CHORUS (key change):

I will stand

I’ll lay down my tears

I’ll search for something

That will make it all clear

I will stand

I will stand

I will stand

Stand on my own

Above My Dreams....(song 10/07/09)

Every day I try struggle through

Across time to you

Memories washing all around me

Don’t ever set me free

Feels like yesterday

I held you, saw your smiling face

I followed blindly and just failed to see

You don’t belong to me

I counted on forever to last

Forever came too fast

I can’t find you now

I turn my face up to the clouds

CHORUS:

And with a soft sweet voice

You caress me

And with a touch of love

You hold me near

When I find too much

In the way of who I want to be

You lift me

Above my dreams

Living in my heart, hold onto you

That’s what I have to do

See your light in every place I look

Reclaiming what you took

I’ll grow beyond the pain

And I will never be the same

CHORUS:

And with a soft sweet voice

You caress me

And with a touch of love

You hold me near

When I find too much

In the way of who I want to be

You lift me

Above my dreams

And when we meet again

It will be like you never left

CHORUS:

And with a soft sweet voice

You caress me

And with a touch of love

You hold me near

When I find too much

In the way of who I want to be

You lift me

Above my dreams

About the author is....

I have been writing since I was in kindergarten. My first "book" was written in elementary school and, along with the rest of my classmates' endeavors, was put in the library where other students could actually check it out. For the "about me" section at the end, I started it with: "About the author is Sandy Roberson." :)

I started to write poetry when I was in 7th grade, as a result of copying my best friends, Stacie and Shannon. What I discovered was that it was very therapeutic and relaxing to me. Since then, all throughout my remaining school years and still today, I write when I'm especially anxious, upset, or excited. Being a fairly impatient person (my husband may argue the "fairly" part), I have found short poetry holds my attention best...I would love to write a novel but have no idea what to write about and have not the patience and dedication to do so!

My dream in life at this moment is to freelance writing greeting cards and songs, allowing my creative identity to flourish, while freeing me to spend more time enjoying my two beautiful girls, Cassidy Alice (6) and Emma Kathryn (8 months).

I will start my writing blog with a couple of the more recent songs and poems I have written, because that is what I have right on hand here to post. Over time, I will share my other work from throughout the years. I have done pretty well at saving it all, but it will take me some time to get it all into the e-world!

I hope whoever reads this, if anyone, will enjoy what I've created!